I feel like this is a love letter.. Not a carnal love letter, but of just love from the Lord. This came at a time where I’m distraught. Confused about decisions to make, the road that I’m on, my imperfections, what happened two nights ago, the issue w/ my cell phone.. Just everything that is on my heart. Sad about the life I once lived, and those that are still in it.. Wanted to spread the gospel to those at the babyshower, but was afraid because I dont know if it is meant for me to minister. Going back home, I saw a church billboard, saying “You wanted to testify, you just did” or “You wanted to witness, you just did”.. I think it was number two.

Which gave me some support as to what I did. I didnt cuss, (almost slipped on the h-word), didnt rock or dance to the music (tempted to), didnt smoke/drink.. Also while there, I met someone named J-Lo, and she is the cousin of my deceased Godbrothers sister.. So, we conversated a little bit during the party, she introduced herself to me, and I to her.. It was cool, she had heard of me, and jst wanted to know who I was. She was also telling me to help her get C.H right because of everything that has happened with her brother and boyfriend.. She said that she could tell that I’m real, that she could see it in me–and I told her thank you, but its all God. That I’m out of the streets, and into the church.. and she said that she could feel that.  Maybe by me just doing that, it exhibited my Light. Glory to God. When I got home, I just cried…. Cried for what happened, cried for the lifestyle they had, cried cuz I came out of it, cried for just about everything.. I just love Jehovah. Here is the Scripture:

And I will betroth thee unto me for ever; yea, I will betroth thee unto me in righteousness, and in judgment, and in lovingkindness, and in mercies.  I will even betroth thee unto me in faithfulness: and thou shalt know the LORD.  Hosea 2:19-20

& got the chills when I read this just now..

“But our citizenship is in heaven. And we eagerly await a Savior from there, the Lord Jesus Christ,”- Philippians 3:20

this was from the night CS was here.. got major chills w/ it.

¹There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit.

This ^, was up there the night before.. and “suddenly” didnt change.. Gotta pray for wisdom.